Why the fuck does this keep happening to mehhh??

Went to Chapel St. today to buy birthday presents for Thanh and Jenny. On our way home, we got onto a tram and sat down. A couple stops down, I see from the corner of my eye, two guys running for the tram. Two guys I know, may I add. They got on and I used my peripheral vision to look and they had become significantly hotter over the years. I knew that they would turn out good, but knowing the awkward turtle I am and my history with seeing hot guys I know but aren't close with, I just awkwardly sat there LOL. When our stop had come, it became even more awkward because when I crossed the street and the tram rode past us, I glanced over at where they were sitting and one of them (the hotter one...) was already staring at me. We had this awkward probably 3 seconds worth of eye sexness until I finally pulled away. FARKKK! EVERY. SINGLE. TIME. They're so close yet so far. Why am I such an awkward turtle?